The Body Chronicles: Tales of Horror and Hearth

AUTHOR

Shreya Bhowmik

“I was born from the purchase of my mother’s body, and the sale of mine makes my skin feel like it did that night.”

In the beginning of Empathy and Prostitution, we see a visitor placing money and turning into an active participant, thereby establishing a bond between themselves and the artist lying naked on the bed. Actions change with people; some act on their sexual desires while others hug Abel longingly. Either way, the body channels the unspeakable. This is the premise that brings Abel Azcona closest to his mother. His life has been marked from the very beginning with the transactional impermanence of a neoliberal regime. Corporeally, Abel lies completely vulnerable in the room located in the gallery, accessible and at the mercy of the many visitors, spectators, and eventual performers. He appears fragile, curled in a foetal position in between white sheets. For one hundred Colombian pesos, his body becomes another’s property for three minutes. Reading the reactions means swinging between violence and affection; he is spanked, whipped, hugged, and caressed. As he gives his body over to the viewer and turns into another element of the performance, re-enacting the transaction that resulted in his accidental birth, he is also in many ways turning the tables and bringing the viewer into his world, seeking empathy for not just his mother but for the audience themselves whose reasons for participating are myriad but not central to the narrative. Azcona, aware that his life is a ‘mistake’, invites others into a realm of understanding where mistakes, though unnecessary, can still forge a bond, perhaps with an absent mother whose memories he now carries in him like in a womb; the roles are reversed. The atmosphere is thick with tension, the flickering light producing a semi-darkness as the smell of sex permeates the air. But there are fleeting moments of joy when he jumps on the bed with crazy abandon. It’s as close to home as Abel can get.

Abel Azcona’s Empathy and Prostitution. 2013. Image Courtesy: Viviana Cárdenas.

The body is the vector and the resource Azcona has at his disposal to reveal the cruelties of man-made structures of power and desire. His birth, from the union between his heroin-addict prostitute mother and an unknown father, was the result of a nexus of exploitative forces. His mother was not allowed to abort, his childhood was spent in poverty, mired in physical abuse and social stigma. Adopted by a wealthy family at the age of 7 that was ultra-religious, he grew up on the principle of corporal punishment, and his life was marked by intermittent violence until he ran away and began living on the streets. While in a psychiatric hospital and diagnosed with a personality disorder, he heard of performance art and has since been making participatory performances and installations. His works, often radical, comment upon instances of abuse, oppression, and fascism, and are committed towards expanding the dialogue around taboo subjects.

Drawing upon the context of his birth, in Biological Meetings, Abel  is seen lying in the foetal position under a white sheet held by a heavily pregnant woman. When he was 26, he shaved his legs, pumped hormones in his body to develop breasts, and prostituted himself in the Santa Fe neighbourhood of Bogotá; he called this work La Calle (The Streets). In La Guerra (The War), he serves up his ketamine-induced body at the altar of people’s imagination; he is simultaneously in the performance and not there. In this work, he enters a trance-like state, inviting both pleasure (some caress him) and transgression (others put out their cigarettes on his body). With his face pushed against the pillows, he gives the impression of not being wholly unconscious, thus signifying a limited presence but a presence nonetheless. Through all of these, Abel wants to reach the moment of his conception, perhaps to confront a world that thrives on hyperconsumerism but limits choices – his art seems to be an attempt to show the rot in the system that dehumanises people like Azcona’s mother and prevents them from exercising their rights to a dignified life. In his exhibition Political (dis)order in Romainmôtier, (t)his body disappears from sight: all that is present are some documents he procured—party memberships, donations made to parties in Spain and in other countries, letters of thanks for donations, receipts, etc. A person, in effect, is reduced to a number or a card.  This work came at a time when Spain was mired in crisis; rampant corruption, a weakened opposition, and the whole system thrown into disarray. In Pain, a project in collaboration with Lili Txt, he drags himself around with a noose tied around his neck: an umbilical cord, once an anchor, now a cross to bear. Through interventions like this, the artist demands accountability from those who claim to serve people; he demands an answer for his mother and her memory.

Abel Azcona’s Biological Meetings. 2013. Image Courtesy: Google Arts and Culture
La Guerra (The War). 2016. Image Courtesy: The artist
A View of Azcona’s exhibition Political (Dis)Order. 2017. Image Courtesy: dAM or Espace de Andrés-Missirlian
A View of Azcona’s exhibition Political (Dis)Order. 2017. Image Courtesy: dAM or Espace de Andrés-Missirlian

Azcona first performed at the age of 16: he sat naked on a chair and screamed in the middle of a road in Pamplona. He stopped the traffic. Since then, his artistic process has pushed him into the relentless pursuit of understanding his past. Enacting an investigation that is autobiographical in nature, his works deal with gestation, bonding, motherhood, abandonment, and discrimination. The body is his chosen tool of resistance and catharsis; a space of confrontation and encounter with his personal demons and our collective horror. This body is the only space he has shared with his mother; his works are, therefore, intimate and private. He shares his rootlessness with those who dare to cross the line and move into the realm of the humane. I access this through a video recording of the performance, the corporeality rendered inaccessible by distance, time, and space. His body remains out of touch but the gestures are loaded with meaning; his act is one of seeking company in a fleeting moment of vulnerability. It feels like he is choosing again and again to be born, to be abandoned, to suffer abuse, and to return to a time when all of this did not exist, when he did not exist.

Abel Azcona’s Empathy and Prostitution. 2013. Image Courtesy: Vimeo

It is quite difficult to view his body of work through a singular lens; each intervention brings new people, contexts, and meanings that speak to a unique process. But binding it all is a desperate need to understand the instances that lead to his suffering. But there is also the gentle embrace of a stranger, another’s warm mouth on his neck, or the whisper of a word: a promise of meaning. His works are characterised by a sense of despair, agony, aggression in a heartbreaking yet tenderly passionate way. As he meets Lili in a third space[1], the open wounds do not seem so horrific. In the face of absolute horror, which is a life devoid of love and empathy, his art forces us to look horror in the eyes and utter:

“I am…I am…I am…”[2]

[1] For a significant part of the performance, the artists inhabit two distinct spaces, entangled in personal grief and separated from each other. This wall gradually dissolves as they both encounter each other and exhibit acts of care and affection. Thus, the space of confrontation is also the space where the personal makes way for the collective, allowing for the possibility of healing.

[2] The Bell Jar by Sylvia Path. Published in 1963, this semi-autobiographical novel explores the chasm between the mind and the body through the life experiences of its protagonist, Esther.

About the Author

Shreya Bhowmik is a writer and independent research scholar presently based out of Kolkata, India. She received her Bachelor’s degree in English from Presidency University, Kolkata. She earned her Master’s in English and Political Science from Presidency University and University of Delhi respectively. Cinema, photography, and archives are a  few of her areas of interest. Bhowmik’s written works have been published in several online magazines and platforms such as Gulmohur Quarterly, Live Wire, Ptenopus, and Critical Collective.